I wish I had never picked up Lovecraft. I am so fucked in the head right now and it all boils down to reading Lovecraft obsessively. Because of him I've fully emerged myself into a world of horror, insignificance, and misery. But, I is who I is I guess. To late to go back now
"If you must break the law, do it to seize power: in all other cases observe it." ~ Caesar
[America] [Scotland] ||| The Truth will stand when the World is on fire.
You always were who you were. Lovecraft may have woken up to the fact, but would you rather have been blind and content or have seen and felt fear and horror? It is a mad choice, but the true man must choose to see, regardless of the dreadful consequences.
look on the bright side: you could become so demented that you think you're happy again!
A monkey riding a dog is probably the awesomest thing that could ever happen.
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At least I derive pleasure from putting myself in the position of Randolph Carter ala his Statement.
"If you must break the law, do it to seize power: in all other cases observe it." ~ Caesar
[America] [Scotland] ||| The Truth will stand when the World is on fire.